Let It Be

When words are fleeting, Jesus speaks. When thoughts are confusing, Jesus calms them. When people are absent, Jesus fills their place.

I am about to embark on what I believe will be a huge landmark in my life. A 70 day adventure with 20 something other college students. To say I have huge expectations for this summer would be an immense understatement. Words cannot scratch the surface of what I feel and know in my heart is about to happen. I don't know what it will all look like, but I do know God is going to move! The beauty of it all is that He has already gone before myself and my entire team and orchestrated every conversation we will have, every event that will happen, every encounter we will make. He has already been there and will be there when it happens.

Ever since going to Kenya last year, I have often wondered why God would choose me to be a part of all this. I don't know what I'm doing AT ALL! But, my God is outside of time and He knew long before the earth was ever formed that tomorrow would be here. He knew that a year ago I would make my first trip to Kenya and absolutely fall in love with the people and the country. He knew that my heart would stay there. He knew that I would long to return. And, He knew that I would go back. The way He has arranged all of this journey up to this day has been absolutely mind blowing and so humbling. He has taught so much through this process and I am so thankful that He never gives up on me! His love never runs out!

One thing I keep going back to is the last day we were in Ereri last year. I was talking to Rebecca and I made her a promise. I told her that I loved her so much and then I promised I would come back to see her. After I got on the bus, it hit me. What if I never get to go back though? Part of me felt guilty but I knew that even if I didn't see her on this earth again, I would see her on the streets of gold and we would sing together again. She has never left my mind or my heart since last year and I prayed every day that she would fall even more in love with Jesus and that I would see her again. As it turns out, this Journey team is the first team to go to the region of Segera - where Rebecca lives. I have no doubt in my mind that this is one of the many reasons I am on this trip. I made a girl a promise and God is allowing me to fulfill it. He is SO good!

I have so many emotions running through me right now. I'm excited to be returning to Kenya and to meet all these new people. I'm stoked to learn even more about the God I serve and call Father. I'm excited that He is allowing me to share His love with others. But, I'm scared. I'm scared to be gone for this long. I'm scared of what might change while I am gone. I'm scared of what the Lord might ask me to do. But, most of al, I am willing. I am willing to be uncomfortable. I am willing to hand over my fears and place them in the hands of my Savior. I am willing to go where ever He may call me. He is in control and THAT excites me! That absolutely pumps me up! Knowing that He has already gone before me and that I can't screw anything up because He has already done the work is so freeing and such a relief!

Lord, I pray that I would just be in your presence during this time. I pray that I would lay aside all of my plans and that yours would be made known. I pray that everything I do would bring glory to Your name alone. This is all for You and because of You. I pray that my team would stand as one and honor You in all of our actions. I pray that our motives would be pure, hearts would be guarded but open to You moving in them. Open our ears God, let us hear what You would say to us. I pray for divine intervention throughout this whole Journey. You are so so good. We are so undeserving. I love you. All of this in Your precious name...

Amen.
Let it be.